I entered CRASH Short Term II (now Golden Hill House) on August 23 2001. For the first time in my life, I was desperate to change and, although I was only 26 years old, I had reached such a bottom that I only had two alternatives – die or get clean. I was willing to do anything at that point. I was a mother with no hope of ever being with her children again. During my 144 days in the program I learned, among other things, coping skills to deal with anger and aggression. I still use these skills today. On January 14, 2002 I entered the aftercare phase of treatment where I learned how to live independently and practice healthy boundaries. I regained custody of my children and became a substance use disorder counselor myself. I am grateful for the opportunities that I have been given ever since my journey began. My clean date is August 21, 2001.